I took another unintended hiatus. Sorry.
So, let me make this Wordy Wednesday.
My husband and I are on the upswing from being down with Influenza B. I've never been diagnosed with influenza ever in my life but that doesn't mean I didn't have it before. Since I don't remember ever having the flu before, I had no idea what the symptoms were and when I started coughing horribly last Monday, I thought it was allergies since this is my allergy season. I got chemo infusion last Tuesday and I started feeling worse. I called off work on Wednesday (I had been off Tuesday because I was in the hospital all day) and went back on Thursday. I was there five minutes before I was sent home and I went immediately to my doctor's office to be seen. I hated showing up without calling but I didn't have a voice. I was swabbed (worst.experience.ever) and then was told no work until at least Monday (of this week). I went back and things went downhill fast. I'm not going to put my business on full blast on the blog but being a Christian and trying to live in a Godly way I had to make a very difficult decision and after prayer, meditation, talking to my husband and a coworker who is a personal friend I decided I had two options: continue to work there and be put in situations that were uncomfortable (not to mention the job turned me back into a potty mouth and I wasn't being a good example of Christ) or I could quit and trust in God that He will acknowledge my actions and my heart and keep me and provide for me a job where I can flourish and where my salvation will be a benefit. I wrote a rather scathing resignation letter that, apparently, as either been seen by or read to most, if not all, of my previous coworkers. My previous boss as not even seen it himself. I stand by what I wrote just as I stand firm on my faith and in my convictions. I included dates and times. I learned a long time ago that you document the heck out of your professional life. While a smaller, more trifling person, would engage in further follow up, I have spoken my piece and have dusted my hands off and now I'm moving forward.
Monday was the first day of my last.graduate.class.ever. I have 8 more weeks and then I'm finished. I will have a Masters degree. I'm elated. Deeply in debt but elated.
Where do we stand on foster parenting? We are going to give it another go 'round. I pray it goes better this time.
My eyes are drooping so I'm going to close but I wanted to put at least an update out there for y'all.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Saturday, March 9, 2013
MIA
Wow, I've been MIA in quite awhile. I've got reasons!
1. I am now employed. Yes. I'm back in the Social Work saddle again. I am a social worker for individuals with disabilities. Given the fact that I now a disabled person, I take a great deal more pride in my work. I did this same job seven years ago and I worked that job for almost 4 years. I honestly thought I could walk back into this position and be all I Got THIS! but the state has made soooooo many changes that while I have the basics down, I'm operating on the OLD system and having a hard time learning the NEW system. And if you want me to be honest: the OLD system appears to me to be more effective and less demanding.
My job is overwhelming and I didn't expect it to be so overwhelming; however, after a mid-week breakdown (that included crying in front of my boss out of complete and utter frustration) I resigned my work to God. Thursday started out the same way Wednesday did but I handled it differently. I stopped and prayed at my desk: "Lord, I will NOT allow something that YOU gave me to make ME this miserable so I'm doing what I should have done when I started and I'm giving YOU this job and opening MYSELF up to be YOUR vessel and I will follow YOUR lead." After I finished my prayer within minutes I felt peace and knew that I don't have to stress anymore because Stress is a weapon and my Bible tells me it won't prosper against me. And the rest of the week was amazingly wonderful. I don't mean I'm madly in love with my job yet. It is work after all, but I'm not wanting to quit.
I told my boss after he and I had a frank conversation that caused me to cry at my desk in front of him and my office mate that I promise him all of my best while I'm there. I'm going to give him everything I have, give my 100% to every client and the agency and if I mess up or things I'll learn from them and not stress on it. I told him I was sorry for crying in front of him but that it was either cry or gather my things and walk out because I had reached my limit. He said he was glad I cried!
2. My first term in my last semester of grad school is officially OVAH! I have Spring Break this coming week then on the 18th I start MY LAST CLASS EVER!!! Then I will be able to sign M.A. after my name at work instead of B.S. I'm overwhelmed by the vast amount of student loan debt I have now because of this degree and paying for it will use the bulk of two week's worth of work on my part each month, I'm extremely proud of myself for finishing grad school. It was not easy. But I did it.
3. My niece continues to amaze me. She's only 26 month's old and she's got the vocalization of a four year old.
4. Our vow renewal planning is going well. (that's a whole blog post on its own and I'll try to do that this weekend!).
I swear I probably have a lot more to write about here but it's escaping me right now. I promise not to put so much time between blog posts.
Posts I have coming up:
Vow Renewal Planning (visit my Pinterest Board HERE)
Where we stand with foster care
P.S. I haven't proofread this post. I's too sleepy. So it if has a lot of typos/errors I'm sorry!!
1. I am now employed. Yes. I'm back in the Social Work saddle again. I am a social worker for individuals with disabilities. Given the fact that I now a disabled person, I take a great deal more pride in my work. I did this same job seven years ago and I worked that job for almost 4 years. I honestly thought I could walk back into this position and be all I Got THIS! but the state has made soooooo many changes that while I have the basics down, I'm operating on the OLD system and having a hard time learning the NEW system. And if you want me to be honest: the OLD system appears to me to be more effective and less demanding.
My job is overwhelming and I didn't expect it to be so overwhelming; however, after a mid-week breakdown (that included crying in front of my boss out of complete and utter frustration) I resigned my work to God. Thursday started out the same way Wednesday did but I handled it differently. I stopped and prayed at my desk: "Lord, I will NOT allow something that YOU gave me to make ME this miserable so I'm doing what I should have done when I started and I'm giving YOU this job and opening MYSELF up to be YOUR vessel and I will follow YOUR lead." After I finished my prayer within minutes I felt peace and knew that I don't have to stress anymore because Stress is a weapon and my Bible tells me it won't prosper against me. And the rest of the week was amazingly wonderful. I don't mean I'm madly in love with my job yet. It is work after all, but I'm not wanting to quit.
I told my boss after he and I had a frank conversation that caused me to cry at my desk in front of him and my office mate that I promise him all of my best while I'm there. I'm going to give him everything I have, give my 100% to every client and the agency and if I mess up or things I'll learn from them and not stress on it. I told him I was sorry for crying in front of him but that it was either cry or gather my things and walk out because I had reached my limit. He said he was glad I cried!
2. My first term in my last semester of grad school is officially OVAH! I have Spring Break this coming week then on the 18th I start MY LAST CLASS EVER!!! Then I will be able to sign M.A. after my name at work instead of B.S. I'm overwhelmed by the vast amount of student loan debt I have now because of this degree and paying for it will use the bulk of two week's worth of work on my part each month, I'm extremely proud of myself for finishing grad school. It was not easy. But I did it.
3. My niece continues to amaze me. She's only 26 month's old and she's got the vocalization of a four year old.
4. Our vow renewal planning is going well. (that's a whole blog post on its own and I'll try to do that this weekend!).
I swear I probably have a lot more to write about here but it's escaping me right now. I promise not to put so much time between blog posts.
Posts I have coming up:
Vow Renewal Planning (visit my Pinterest Board HERE)
Where we stand with foster care
P.S. I haven't proofread this post. I's too sleepy. So it if has a lot of typos/errors I'm sorry!!
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